Grades were out last Saturday. What was new? Nothing. If not worse. Sigh.

Think I'm gonna be a bit emo-ish today. Please don't kill me.

I did so so so much last sem. Churned out tons and tons of notes. For contracts, for crim, for legal theory and even for lawr. And none of the effort showed. I was dismayed. I was disappointed.

No no.

I was APPALLED.

I wanted to CRY when i saw my lawr grade. It was so dismal. I'm ashamed. Very ashamed.

When i clicked on the button, the moment I saw my results, it totally failed to register.... Totally. Then I blinked twice. And started shouting and screaming and flailing my arms like a madman. And my parents were beside me. They asked what just happened. I told them what transpired.
And their words to me were just "At least you passed."

I was quite relieved when they said that - thought they would fall to the ground and foam at the mouth or something. Thank goodness. But another side of me felt really really hurt. I spent so much time doing those notes. All those notes. Not withstanding some people or someone who said that the notes were totally useless after I passed it to them/him. And I read full cases at least 75% of the time. I felt really really hurt. Yeah. I felt betrayed by the results.

I thought that I could change all the wrong things I did last sem. But no. Nothing changed. I'm just too dumb and incapable to survive in law i think. Either i get a genius cell implanted in my brain next sem or a miracle happens. Or I can continue slogging like a pig on batteries next sem, try my best, hope for the best and be utterly disappointed once more. They don't want just the answer. They want sparks of brilliance to appear out of the 2-3 hours they assign to you for the exams. Sparks of brilliance. Which I totally don't have. Sigh.

Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I had gone to take Arts instead and majored in Literature. Sigh... Esp nowadays.

Sigh...

But what's past is past right?

I've gotta move on.

Shop. Movies. Friends. Work. Eat. Script. Sleep.
Shop. Movies. Friends. Work. Eat. Script. Sleep.
Shop. Movies. Friends. Work. Eat. Script. Sleep.
Shop. Movies. Friends. Work. Eat. Script. Sleep.

Come here SuperGJon (my teddy/puppy), I need a hug. Like now.

Hugs. And to all those of you who need hugs --> Hugs from me. :)

PS: Maroon 5 and Fall Out Boy are great for those emo moments and those moments where u just feel like singing loudly to rhythmic catchy music.

Labels: Law School, Whining