I can't believe what I did just now... I'm so dumb. Really, I'm so dumb. How could I be so dumb as to do that? I'm so so sorry... Really I am. I didn't mean for it to come out that way...

I need a good dumbing down. As if I don't dumb myself down enough.

And today, I just wanted to sit on the stairwell in school, hug my knees and cry and bawl my lungs out. But school full of people. Everyone was around.

God... I've got so many wonderful close friends but I keep feeling that I'm damn lonely. Something's wrong. And next week is going to be so so so bad. So bad.

Bad.

Very bad.

I am going to die from all the things happening next week.

Why do I keep doing this to myself? And Memo's due next week!!!

And I'm gonna do so badly for my Stat memo.

Thank God there's no contract next week.

And today, I understood not a single bit of Legal Theory. It's the worst yet. I am THAT dumb. I spent my time typing whatever I could get out of the seminar - but in actuality, I didn't understand a single thing. God... How am I going to understand this at all?

School's so... so... bleargh nowadays...